Wednesday, October 31, 2007

on this day...

i had an idea. nothing earth shattering and not even completely original, put personal and possibly life changing nonetheless.

and i'm not going to share it here... not because i don't think you are important enough, because you most certainly are, but because it is still new and fresh. it still needs to gather strength and take on a form of it's own, outside of my mind.

one day though... one day soon it will be all growed up and ready to leave the house on it's own.

until then, i just have this day... and the idea.

little idea

Friday, October 26, 2007

reunion

there is something about being home that slackens the belt around my heart and lets the air back in. it’s a golden soft feeling that warms the skin from the inside.

i walked through the door today to a home that wrapped it’s walls around me and hugged me like an old friend. it was cold inside and out. since i had left the clouds had moved in and continually dusted the mountains with early winter frosting. the power had gone out, but thankfully i had the forethought to clean out my fridge before leaving, so even the kitchen smelled clean.

it’s been raining since i landed back on italian soil and it seems like each drop is on a mission to penetrate and permeate every layer of warmth a person could wear. the rain is cold and the sky is a leaded grey. i got inside and turned on the heat after i realized i could see my breath better inside than out. i have no idea how any of my plants survived. they are obviously hearty little greenies, and the artificial drought must have made possible their survival through near freezing temperatures. sure, there are some leaves on the floor, and Fozzie the fern looks like he has been living in a methlab, but overall there aren’t any in critical condition.

there was mail waiting for me. a card from heather, some movies, more grad school catalogs, convenience checks, and a replacement pizza stone for the broken one i received two months ago... the replacement stone was also... broken... although less broken (if that’s a saying) than the first, having a smaller corner broken off. so there’s progress at least.

the speakers in my house welcomed me the loudest with some ‘iron and wine’ to listen to over the rain. i walked through the rooms and turned on all the lights. i sat on all the chairs and visited all the plants. i ran the faucets until warm water came out. i put fresh vegetables in the fridge... three carrots, celery, two peppers (one orange and one red), asparagus, broccoli, and a somewhat jovial portabello.

so now my home is warm, my heart is home, and you are all in my heart.

welcome

Monday, October 22, 2007

master procrastinator

so here is a conversation with myself:

whatcha doin?

nothin

shouldn't you be studying for tomorrow, or doing something productive?

yeah

why aren't you?

cuz

cuz why?

cuz i don't feel like it

oh... well... are you going to get around to it? i mean, it's getting kind of late.

yeah... like eventually... i mean, when i feel like it.

...

i am such a wonderful procrastinator.


Zagorka
a note on this photo.
it was taken at RED FOX PIZZA PUB... which is quite possibly the only pizza pub in existence that does not serve pizza. when i asked the waitress what kind of pizzas they had (after noticing the rather conspicuous absense of pizza in their menu), she looked at me as if i were crazy.
the nerve of me
so here is my friend, Kaiser, enjoying his slice of our make-believe pizza that we wanted to order.

Thursday, October 18, 2007

anti-pasta please

i had a great i idea of something to write about. but alas... in the last few minutes while i was wandering over to the ol computerdora to jot it down, it ran from my mind in a spastic frenzy and jumped out the window of my hotel.

i didn't sleep well last night. kinda have had a lot on my mind. also i've been gone out of the house for a while and i'm kind of tired of the hotel life. my recent quest for minimalism with my packing has inadvertantly led to an over-minimalism. i brought one book that i read in the first two days. i have yet to find an english language bookstore to find a replacement and all my compatriots are mid-book and unwilling to trade.

aparently bulgarians are fans of italian food. it is really hard to find a restaurant that doesn't serve only pasta and pizza... i found a few, but it is also difficult to eat at those same restaraunts day in and day out. so i left italy for bulgaria... and i'm still eating italian food.

the hotel leaves a bit to be desired. apparently, on the 15th of October, they shut off the A/C for the season... because the system can only be on hot... or cold... so i have my window open for all the noise of the street to come in.

the hotel also can't hack the present bookings. the elevators lasted all of four days before they went kaput. two of the three just don't work. the other one doesn't come to you unless you are on the bottom floor, or unless by luck someone rises up to your floor. so i've been using the service elevators and getting funny looks from the staff.

this isn't to say that i'm entirely lazy. i am living on one of the upper floors though. i tried taking the stairs for a while, but none of the floors are marked, so if you lose count you have to go onto every floor and look at the room numbers... if you go too far you end up in the sub-sub-sub-basement... which is like -4 in european terms... 0 being the ground floor. also at floor 0 there is a virtual maze of unmarked doors through the underbelly of the administrative branch of the hotel. it is almost faster to wait on the floor for someone to bring the elevator up, and a lot less stressful.

i went to the black sea over the weekend. i stayed in a summer beach town... it is definitely not summer. it was most decidedly empty... but pleasant nonetheless. just the same, i think i'll go back in the summer next time.

i had a fairly taxing day at work today. one of those 'life lesson' type days that you hope never to repeat. it turned out fairly well, and i fessed up immediately about my mis-doings to the boss, but my adrenaline was going for a couple of hours. needless to say i won't have a hard time sleeping tonight.

i'm freaking exhausted.

duvishdene